Motherhood
I was given the gift of motherhood for 3 months of my life. My husband Aaron and I have been wanting to grow our family for many years now and we had pursed adoption because we love the idea of growing our family that way. I was so happy to find out on April 30th, 2024 that a birth mom had picked us, and we started on the journey of loving on that birth mom and our new baby in utero for six months until the baby was born on September 9th, 2024.
They say you never know what it feels like to be a mom til you hold your baby in your arms for the first time. It was an awe inspiring experience to watch him be born and cut the umbilical cord. We were so excited to take him home, but he ended up needing special care in the NICU for five weeks. I went to the NICU and was with him for twelve hours a day, and the nurses at Women’s Hospital are the most generous, amazing humans you’ll ever meet. So many of them will always hold a special place in my heart. The day we got to take the baby home was one my favorite days of my life so far. It felt so real.
We got to keep the baby for two months and motherhood lived up to beyond my expectations. I loved taking care of him and pouring over his needs— even when he would cry in the night I was excited to wake and feed him and put him back to sleep.
Unfortunately even though we were promised the child, against our own wishes, we had to give him back to his family of origin, and it has been quite devastating. I never thought I could love the job of motherhood so much. I’m happy that God trusted me with his life for the three months that I got with him and hope that one day I will get to do it again.
Psalm 113:9- God’s grace provides for the barren ones a joyful home with children so that even childless couples find a family. He makes them happy parents surrounded by their pride and joy. That’s the God we praise, so give it all to him!
I do believe that God will make me and Aaron great parents to whatever child we have in the future. God’s blessed us so richly, so we have so much that we want to share with them. I have a newfound respect for all fathers and mothers. The dedication and willingness to serve a young one is, to me, the greatest honor and blessing.